I believe this may call for a proper introduction...

Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind

Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her
Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light
When she walked in, he throws up, believe its the fright

Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear

I want to f*cking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to f*cking tear you apart

can you name all the bands? :)

I took cutie for a ride in my deathcab
She tipped me with a kiss I dropped her off at the meth lab
Before she left she made a dashboard confessional
And spilled her guts in cursive but whats worse is
I could still see her bright eyes like sunny day real estate
Oh my and in a funny way the ceiling tastes
So high but no chance
My little chemical romance left a bad taste in my mouth
But I approached her like hey mercedes why the long face
Why you cryin? theres no need
Just put on this coheed and fallout
Boy meets girl jimmy eat world
But Schlep eats pills till hes all out
Not once not twice she was thrice times a lady
Mackin on brand new, but I had to
Bounce over to the postal service to
Pick up these pills that take care of my nervousness
And all the way I saw planes and mistook 'em for stars
She played games but she took em too far
At the drive in
Watching soft porn and you can tell
By the trail of the dead, that there was somethin in the popcorn
I hop in my cab destination midtown
Just to get up with some kids that like to get down
I'd made my rounds and that was that
In between the frowns and scraps and heart attacks
And I remember I seen her ass in early november
On a Thursday taking back Sunday for a refund
She shot a wink like no hard feelings
Then she jetted to brazil man them pills had me spun

This is the story of the year right here
This is hot water music
Put ya ramen into it

so last night i had a dream that the tsu mail guy was a deranged murderer. and brandon and i were like partner detectives trying to catch him. and at some point i jumped through a window...

yay for messed up dreams...

i have the sudden insane urge to get into a fight. not a verbal one, or a drama-filled one. i want to kick ass and get mine kicked in return. how sad is it to say i'm about to graduate from college and i haven't even ever gotten a broken nose? honestly, i know i get like this every once in a while, but usually it's caused by some random anger. i just wanna fight for no reason at all, then go get a beer afterwards - loser buys the first pitcher. is this wrong? just need to get some energy out. who knows, i think i'm getting crazy restless since graduation is almost here. i can't wait til alum weekend tho, it's gonna be one hella party weekend. i have not seen any of the alums (even my precious sarah cafe) in a very long time, and i plan to have a goooood, good time. eeeee. so i should be writing some papers. but i would like to make a public announcement: fuck papers. i am tired of writing them. i know i can write masterfully, and if the professors have not caught on that i'm basically the greatest thing around when it comes to papers they're just insane...i mean the diction alone is swoon-worthy. yeah, i'll wait while you go check your dictionary/thesaurus on that one. gah, i really just want to get into a brawl. no idea what else to say...other than

FUCK WRITING PAPERS I AM GOING TO GO WATCH SOME ZOMBIE MOVIES
...braaaaaaaaains...uuuuuuunnnnnnnghhhhhh....

i'm two quarters and a heart down, and i don't wanna forget how your voice sounds. <--two style points for identifying the source of this quote...maybe three, if i'm feeling generous

1. You can only say YES or NO!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

Taken a picture naked? No
Made out with a member of the same sex? No
Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
Told a lie? Yes
Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
Been in a fist fight? Yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
Been arrested? No
Left your house without telling your parents? Yes
Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
Seen someone die? Yes
Kissed a picture? Yes
Slept in until 3? Yes
Laid on your back and watched cloud hapes go by? Yes
Played dress up? Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
Felt an earthquake? No
Touched a snake? No!!!
Ran a red light? Yes
Had detention? No
Been in a car accident? Yes
Pole danced? No
Been lost? Yes
Sang karaoke? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
Kissed in the rain? No
Sang in the shower? Yes
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? No
Ever gone to school partially naked? No
Sat on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
Broken a bone? No
Mooned/flashed someone? No
Forgotten someone's name? Yes
Slept naked?
Blacked out from drinking? Yes
Played a prank on someone? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yes
Made a parent cry? Yes
Cried over someone? Yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? No
Had/Have a dog? Yes
Been in a band? Yes
Drank 25 sodas in a day? Yes
Shot a gun? Yes

You scored as Magenta. Your like Magenta! </td> Magenta 79% RiffRaff 67% Eddie 50% Frank N Furter 46% Janet Weiss 46% Brad Majors 46% Rocky 42% Columbia 21% Which Rocky Horror Show character are you most in common with? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Gail. </td> Gail 70% Marv 65% Lucielle 65% Becky 55% Shelley 50% That Yellow Bastard 45% Dwight 45% Kevin 35% Goldie 35% Nancy 25% Hartigan 25% Miho 20% Manute 20% Jackie Boy 20% What Sin City Character are You? created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Demon. You are a Demon. You are a demon, though the idea may surprise you. You have a cutting humor and a sarcastic wit that are not always appreciated. You may tease people in fun. When others can seem very hurt by your remarks, you see them as too sensitive. The truth is, you may be too insensitive, too abrasive and not very empathetic. While surprised by this assessment, you also could probably care less. People can either like you or or dislike you. You are what you are and that's the way it is. And, of course, you'd never have it any other way. </td> Demon 81% Frankenstein 75% Werewolf 69% Vampire 63% Witch/Warlock 56% Are you a CREATURE of the NIGHT created with QuizFarm.com

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		9
Physical Touch:		6
Acts of Service:		4
Receiving Gifts:		0

Take the quiz

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You don't really value honesty. You do value getting your way, no matter what. And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem. A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!) Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount. You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take. Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need. But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You value humility a fair amount. You tend to be an easy going, humble person. But occasionally your ego takes over. You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

ever listen to a cd and gotten so pumped you couldn't just sit and study...when you had a final the very next day that you have yet to study for?

yeah, me too

so much crap swimming in my head right now. i just want to go to a concert right now. escapism? probably...just wanna hear some good stuff...but it's a tuesday in indiana....soooo...i'm fucked.

ahhhhhhhh, laker you are my rosebud!!! effin agency administration final....gahhhhh

you say that you want respect
well then you better get some for yourself
cuz all i see is someone who's lost and insecure

...song lyrics can strike home in the most random ways...sigh

at some point we all must die. it is inevitable. why run from things? honestly, just embrace life, whatever will be will be. an individual is such a small notion of what the world is made of. take a step outside. look. what do you see? life is everywhere. humans like to think that we are exceptional, we are the best things on the planet. whatever. we are all inconsequential. to sit in and amongst nature. to see a bird land next to you, not caring that you're the superior species. that's power. not necessarily the power of feeling better, being better, or percieved as better. it's just a strong sense of something. call it peace. call it tranquility. i call it a lifestyle. i don't know where this came from, but i think i am gonna get a house out in the woods after all this is said and done. woo spring.

ya know, now is about the time of year where i need to start burning some bridges

sorry to all those who don't make it past the first round

oh goodness. so much has happened in the past few days. thank you to those who took care of me...i can't remember who all that would be...but thank you. and thank you flynn for doing something about my breathing or lack thereof *eep* so yeah, lost some respect for some peeps this weekend...but no one really liked them anyways, so it was inevitable i guess...who knows...so yeah...next weekend?...AAAAAAUGHHH

If you have any preferences lemme know, cuz I'm not an expert in dino-nameology

T-rush got it first

well shit, where to begin? howabout with tuesday's concert...

TUESDAY: BLACK CLOUDS AND UNDERDOGS: THE HUSH SOUND, FROM FIRST TO LAST, HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS, ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS, and FALL OUT BOY

So it was an arena tour, yeah. We got there at 3:30 and stood outside for like 2 hours in the cold. Then, since Emily is an OCK, we hooked up with some of those other kids, and being OCK's, we all got into the show 15 minutes before general admission. So we were right on the bar for The Hush Sound. Which was cool, I had never heard of them, but they were alright. Then we left after their set for the OCK's meet & greet with Fall Out Boy...wooo (gay). We each got one thing signed by the band, and then one picture. They were herding us through like retarded elementary schoolers in line at McDonald's, seriously. So anywhoo, after losing our kickass spots and the depression of meeting these guys (seriously, it was like a downer cuz we saw them for less then 3 min total, so it's like a pseudo-surreal, did we really meet them kinda thing), we went back for HH's set (missed From First to Last's cuz of the meet and greet). We got pretty decent spots near the front right, about four or five people deep from the barricade. That was cool. So we were rocking out, having a kickass time. And then the All-American Rejects came on. And I love their music, but only really enjoyed one song b/c I was trying to save my sister from being mauled in the mosh pit we unknowningly made our way to in the crowd (I know, I know - "unknowingly" yeah, but I wasn't paying enough attention). So after like 2/3 of their set, a kick to the back of my head, an elbow to the spine, and a left hook to my face, we decided to enjoy the band from the back of the arena floor, cuz we were there for the music, not the BO-ridden teenage nightmare of a mosh pit. So anywhoo, we rocked out the last part of their set, and thn got some Gatorade cuz we were dying. Unbeknownst to me, Gatorade makes Emily not so healthy (<--foreshadowing). So anywhoo, Fall Out Boy comes on, fucking larger than life, for sure. So anywhoo, we're rockin, rockin, rockin, jumpin, rockin, etc..and Em turns to me with an 'I don't feel good' look on her face. We make it to the bathroom just in time for her to get sick alll over a bathroom stall. Yeah, so after recuperating, we go back and start rocking out again. And FOB rocks some fucking fire cannons on stage. To me, this was the height of over-the-top-ness, and for a band that says they're all about the music, I found myself slightly disillusioned. So anywhoo, we're rockin out to Sugar...and Em gets that look on her face again. Yeah, no good. But one more hurling, and that was the end of that, the bass of the speakers and the jumping around were messing her up, but she survived it. Show ends, we're deaf...Yay! So then we go to leave, and she chucks in the parking lot again. Yeah, hardcore. Happy first rock show, Em!


WEDNESDAY: TRUCKSTOPS AND STATELINES: HELLOGOODBYE, ACCEPTANCE, PANIC! AT THE DISCO, and THE ACADEMY IS

Yeah, this one was in a smaller venue, and in my opinon, rocked so much more than the other show. It was just in all aspects, superior. No huge visuals, no pyrotechnics, just bands rocking out on stage for the crowd to enjoy. This is truly the kind of live acts that I love and adore, and if I could own a music venue, I would so get a small one like that. I don't really know what else to say about this one, it wasn't nearly as eventful. Em took about 350 pictures on my digital camera during the last two sets, so yeah, got some awesome rock pictures if you ever wanna see em. We got there like 5 min before the show started, so it was like perfect timing, and we got right up near the front, which was cool. I had never really heard of anything from hellogoodbye or Acceptance, but I would definately suggest that you check their stuff out, in my opinion, they're up and comers, they've both got a pretty good sound goin on. So yeah, it was cool. Loved it. Yadda yadda yadda. Rock rock rock it.

Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It's been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma i fell in love again
It's safe to say i have a new girlfriend

And i know it sounds so old
But cupid got me in a chokehold
And i'm afraid i might give in
Towels on the mat my white flag is wavin'

I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And alka seltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain't love then i don't know what love is

We even got a secret handshake
And she loves the music that my band makes
I know i'm young but if i had to choose her or the sun
I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

(ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It's been awhile since we talked last and i'm tryin' hard not to talk fast
But dad i'm finally thinkin' i may have found the one
Type of girl that will make you way proud of your son

And i know you heard the last song about the girls that didn't last long
But i promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name (ba ba da da)

I love the way she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain't love then i don't know what love is (ba ba da da)

It's gonna be a long drive home but i know as soon as i arrive home
And i open the door take off my coat and throw my bag on the floor
She'll be back in my arms into my arms once more for sure

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man i swear
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh i ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And i would still cherish every moment
And when i start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere i go i keep her picture in my wallet like you

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

from this list i will eventually give everyone nicknames. be prepared. if you don't feel that i am dubbing you in a speedy manner, lemme know, and after i bitch slap you i'll name you.

Antonia
Aquila
Augustus
Aulus
Aurelius
Avitus
Brutus
Caesar
Caius
Camilla
Cassia
Cassius
Cato
Cicero
Claudius
Constantine
Cornelius
Crescentius
Decimus
Deodatus
Dionysius
Domitilla
Drusilla
Fabius
Fausta
Faustus
Felicia
Felix
Festus
Fidelis
Flavia
Flavius
Florentina
Fortunata
Fulvia
Gaius
Gallus
Gnaeus
Hannibal
Herminius
Honoratus
Horatia
Horatius
Hortensia
Juliana
Julius
Justus
Laelia
Laurentius
Leonius
Liberius
Liviana
Longinus
Lucian
Luciana
Marcellus
Marcus
Mariana
Marianus
Marius
Maximus
Nero
Octavius
Pontius
Publius
Quintus
Rufina
Rufus
Saturnina
Secundus
Seneca
Septimus
Sergius
Servius
Severina
Sextus
Sidonius
Silvanus
Silvia
Spurius
Tacitus
Tatiana
Tertius
Thracius
Tiberius
Titus
Valerius
Varinius
Vespasianus
Vitus
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And now for beginning/ending phrases

The Dread Pirate--
Duke--
Lord--
Grand Master--
Emperor--
--the Impaler
--the Gnave
--the Hun
--the Scourge
--the Great
--the Conqueror
--Khan
--the Lionhearted
--the Brave
--the Mad
--the Terrible

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And now for titles thus far...these are open to suggestion/alteration...i'll edit as more people get their names

Me: Heeves Flavius the Impaler
Rachel: Maximus Octavius/Optimus Prime
Dex: Grand Master Faustus Penisius
Flynn: Tiberius Pointius the Lionhearted
Lula: Liviana Randomus XII

EDIT - ADDED 3/19 6PM
Chris: Quintius Honoratus the Scholar
McGowan: Vitus Hannibal the Scourge
Cpl. B: Hotdogius Maximus
Jamie: Hortensia Apexienne the Virtuous

I've made so many people read this already, but for those of you who don't know how great I am, here is the letter I wrote about myself on a modesty-free day

 

            I am honored to find my name listed among those considered for the Jannen Renaissance Scholar Award. I believe that in our modern society, diversity as individuals within the greater society is highly important. I also truly believe that life is constantly preparing you for the future. Even before my time at Tri-State University, I have always sought out the ideals of a Renaissance Scholar. A well-known quote by Henry David Thoreau goes: “If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away.” This is a quote I hold close to my heart and I believe that it may be used to characterize my own life.

            My many group affiliations and pursuits demonstrate that I have always been an individual willing to take on challenges. As far back as high school, I held a strong desire to participate in and accomplish goals through group activities. I was a member of my high school’s Spell Bowl and Academic Bowl programs and a member of marching and concert band, performing flute, piccolo, bassoon, and percussion. All these activities necessitated extra time and effort spent learning new information as well as new skills. In college, as a member of Phi Sigma sorority, I was granted the opportunity to serve as Alumnae correspondent, Social chair, Fundraiser chair, and Member-at-Large. Holding these offices allowed me to bring new concepts and ideas to the sorority itself; being a sorority office holder prepared me for other work and responsibilities outside the organization. I am currently working as one of the two student managers on campus at Centennial Station Coffee House. My role as student manager has brought me greater leadership skills, a capacity for greater responsibility, and life experience as well. Working on campus, both at Centennial Station and at the Bookstore, has provided me with an opportunity to meet many students and faculty from around the campus; I am proud to say that professors and students whom I have never shared a classroom with know me by my first name and can share a conversation with me. I believe that I possess a certain amiability, which is almost necessary in social situations.

            Another important constant in my life is individuality. In high school I served as drum major for the marching band and, to this day, I am the only female drum major in performance history to wear a suit in competition. Before me, all female drum majors were known to wear extravagant formal gowns; my desire to go against this tradition initially met with criticism. Admittedly, going against social norms is not always for the best, however, I believe that there is a certain strength of character required to stand for a belief that may not be held by the majority of people. I continue to demonstrate individuality in my life decisions, my behavior, and my interactions with others.

            My life is also marked by broad self-education. In the past four years of college, I have taught myself how to knit, quilt, crochet, decoupage. I am currently developing my skills as a candle maker. These skills are not those of a virtuoso, however, I believe that holding a broad understanding of topics/skills allows for a singular appreciation both of personal talents and the talents of others. Initially I learned how to knit out of boredom and an excess of free time in the dorms. However, as my knowledge of the craft grew, I also found there was so much more to learn. This has been the case with many of my leisure pursuits and avenues of expression. I fell in love with the process of learning, the ability to forge ahead of my own volition. My desire for expanding education also reaches outside the realm of arts and crafts. I am currently seeking my CPR certification, and am taking casual lessons to learn Microsoft Access.

            I have so far discussed my life outside of my actual college curriculum. Allow me to briefly summarize my school accomplishments. I hold a 3.53 GPA and find my strongest interest in coursework dealing with psychology. I am fascinated by what motivates the individual, and am currently researching this at length in two of my courses. For my senior independent study, I am compiling a list of American serial killers, identifying victims, motives, patterns, and other relevant information. In my Topics in Psychology
course, I am examining the psychology of forced social situations, more specifically, I am trying to develop an understanding of why people carry out commands of violence as dictated by authority figures. My coursework over the last four years has led me to membership in the American Criminal Justice Association. I have competed at both regional and national conferences throughout my college career. I have won awards in the topics of Criminal Law, Juvenile Justice, LAE [association] Knowledge, and Corrections. I have also won multiple awards in Crime Scene Investigation Competitions, the pinnacle of which was a second place finish at national conference.

            The wise words of Thoreau also resound when I contemplate my future. I am currently seeking employment in the law enforcement field. More specifically, I am hoping to find a job dealing with undercover work. This field of work is narrow, to say the least, and requires a well-rounded intellect for any level of success. I am also willing to freely jump in to new endeavors, as may be noted with my work at Cedar Point. Initially, it was hard to suddenly move to a strange and unknown place, however, I believe that is part of the “field experience” of a Renaissance Scholar. Had I not taken the opportunity to leave everything familiar behind, I would have missed a fantastic opportunity to meet a new and diverse group of individuals and learn the eternally important subject of conflict resolution.

I believe that I have learned through self-education, group endeavors, and my genuine desire for knowledge – what I believe the ultimate qualities of a Renaissance Scholar to be – have prepared me to be a student of the world. College does not bring the end of learning; rather, it is the springboard into all that remains to be learned. This is what I am taking with me as I graduate this spring from Tri-State University.

 

 

Regards,

 

 

Heeves Flavius the Impaler

ever gotten that 'i want to go to a live fucking concert right now so that i can rock the fuck out' kinda mood? yeah...got that goin on. right now. at 11-effin-30 at night. what the hell sam. what the hell